Worrying
What a day of worries.
Firstly, my eye problem is not getting any better, and my gf was saying it could be astigmatism. I went surfing some sites to check up on the condition, and it really looks to be so. Then today, I wanted to double check that it was not the problem of my laptop screen being blur, so I glanced at hock's lappy and the words were blur too. Oh dear. Im gonna get an eye checkup soon. Damn, 24 years of a pair of perfectly fine eyes is gonna give way soon. Tomorrow a loaded day, so is friday, so I'll probably go during the weekends. This problem is making it hard for me to read too, and its discouraging me from doing any work. Good excuse huh.
Second worry? My daily routine now. Apparently, the long break from both the cny holidays and my gf's chalet, I haven really picked up the mood nor momentum to start studying. To put it simply, I am not at all motivated to study at all. I don't really know if thats a worry, or a blessing. Because for the last 3 days, I have been spending more time talking on the phone with my girlfriend, I have been sleeping early and catching some good rest, and I have been playing dota.
Its a totally changed lifestyle from what it used to be, assignments, studies, and more assignments. For projects so far, I am even guilty of taking a step back to just watch and follow suit, something which is so not me. I even skipped a lecture today, eventhough it was kinda because I was still settling my SEP stuff. What has come over me I really do not know, but I guess part of the reason for my slackness is that I do not really have any deadlines or work to be completed this week, so the last minute-ness in me is not prepared to start doing assignments which are due next week.
I also think that I'm suffering from some cognitive dissonance, finding more and more reasons to justify why I am really starting to find studying a chore, and am looking forward to other things like working or going abroad. Sancia just told me about her interview, and apparently a very familiar remark surfaced. The interviewer said 'Apart from all your certs and grades, what else can you offer?' When I heard that, the more I suddenly lost the motivation to study.
Ok, maybe I just need a rest to 'reset' my currently messed up brain. And my eyes are really starting to hurt and strain, so I'd better stop typing now.
Firstly, my eye problem is not getting any better, and my gf was saying it could be astigmatism. I went surfing some sites to check up on the condition, and it really looks to be so. Then today, I wanted to double check that it was not the problem of my laptop screen being blur, so I glanced at hock's lappy and the words were blur too. Oh dear. Im gonna get an eye checkup soon. Damn, 24 years of a pair of perfectly fine eyes is gonna give way soon. Tomorrow a loaded day, so is friday, so I'll probably go during the weekends. This problem is making it hard for me to read too, and its discouraging me from doing any work. Good excuse huh.
Second worry? My daily routine now. Apparently, the long break from both the cny holidays and my gf's chalet, I haven really picked up the mood nor momentum to start studying. To put it simply, I am not at all motivated to study at all. I don't really know if thats a worry, or a blessing. Because for the last 3 days, I have been spending more time talking on the phone with my girlfriend, I have been sleeping early and catching some good rest, and I have been playing dota.
Its a totally changed lifestyle from what it used to be, assignments, studies, and more assignments. For projects so far, I am even guilty of taking a step back to just watch and follow suit, something which is so not me. I even skipped a lecture today, eventhough it was kinda because I was still settling my SEP stuff. What has come over me I really do not know, but I guess part of the reason for my slackness is that I do not really have any deadlines or work to be completed this week, so the last minute-ness in me is not prepared to start doing assignments which are due next week.
I also think that I'm suffering from some cognitive dissonance, finding more and more reasons to justify why I am really starting to find studying a chore, and am looking forward to other things like working or going abroad. Sancia just told me about her interview, and apparently a very familiar remark surfaced. The interviewer said 'Apart from all your certs and grades, what else can you offer?' When I heard that, the more I suddenly lost the motivation to study.
Ok, maybe I just need a rest to 'reset' my currently messed up brain. And my eyes are really starting to hurt and strain, so I'd better stop typing now.
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