Gong Xi Fa Cai
Happy Lunar New Year everybody! Was kind of lazy to come online for the past few days, and that explains for my absence of entries for quite a while. So am gonna make up for it, by having this rather long post about all the random stuff in my head since I last blogged.
This new year was well, here and there in some ways. It started off with the new year eve, whereby I joined the guys in clubroom for dota. Yes, I actually don't know how to play dota, but seeing them having so much fun, I couldn't resist the temptation and joined in the fun, making a noobish learning start of course. It was kinda funny though how some of them were already late for their reunion dinners, but they still wanted to finish off the last game. You know, the scene at the clubroom that day reminded me of my poly days, where school was a hell load of fun. You could play yahoo games during lab lessons, could go for billiards and lan in between and after classes, and you could even go to play lan in between exam papers! That was what poly was all about. Some people have this perception that you have to do very well from poly to get into university, but it wasn't the case for me. I kinda played and enjoyed most of my time at poly, with some hardwork and studying in between, but not much really. Although in saying this, I'm not saying its real easy to enter university from poly, just that it may not be as tough and you may not have to be as muggerfied as some people think. Whatever it is, my poly days will always be the best time of my studying years.
As for visiting on the first two days, an unexpected death of a not so close elder relative made my already short visiting rounds even shorter, and this again erased off some lines in my family tree. I visited only 3 places on the first day, and it took about 2-3 hours only, and just 1 place on the second day. It was kinda sad, and I really see myself and my family spending just 1-2 hours visiting in the years to come. It's a sad reality, as chinese new year seems to lose its meaning as you start growing older. It used to be the case where 1 day was not even enough for visiting, where visiting was fun and red packets aplenty, but now that has all changed.
The third day was better. Spent the morning at my gf's place before going to our friend's house, and then going to camy's house. It was a day of catching up with old friends, fun with university friends, and also lots of gambling. My blackjack luck was good at our friend's house, but kinda lost back some earnings at camy's house. Haha, played mahjong with her mum and aunt, and the stakes were double those I usually play. But well, it was good, and I did ok, until hock came and swipped my winnings, so much so that they become losings, haha. After camy's house, went out again with my gf and our friends and we played some simple games at this 24 hour hong kong cafe, and it was amazing how we could have so much fun and laughter just playing those simple round-the-table games.
Well just like that, I am already in the final day of the long chinese new year holiday, and its really upsetting to know that school resumes again tomorrow. I have totally slacked off for the past 3-4 days, and its gonna take time to start back the engine.
Many thoughts have been running through my head the past week, and its kinda disturbing. Since the end of last semester, I have always been complaining about school. I said before that I was seriously considering not going for honours, just simply for the fact that I was starting to get real tired of studying. That fact has not changed, and the reality of it surfaced in my thoughts again last week. To be real honest, I am feeling really saturated from all the studying. During visiting, one of my younger uncles was asking how long more before I graduate, and I said about 1 year plus because I am going for honours. His reply was, "good, studying is fun so study while you can". The reply was so similar to that of the IAC panel I mentioned before. But it dawned upon me that, studying is not at all fun for me now. The only fun I had studying was during poly. The activities and friends at university is fun, but studying? I know when I go out to work in the future, I may look back to say I prefer to study than work, but thats for the future. As for now, studying is well, to say the least, not something I am enjoying at all.
Apart from the saturation from all the work and assignments, there is another reason why I am so sick of studying. I must admit many a times I am too overly concerned about my grades, about my CAP score, about dean's list, about assignment weightages. But sometimes I just sit down to ask myself, why worry so much? These stuff are getting to me, and making me all stressed up and worried. In fact, too stressed up and worried for my own good. It is really frustrating. Suddenly, I just want to graduate, and go out to work.
I am so looking forward to internship and SEP now, rather than the workload and assignments ahead in this semester. I am now just focusing of doing fairly well for this semester, hoping to cement my cap at second upper region. I am now just looking forward to the experiences I can get from my internship and overseas exchange, which I am sure would do me more good than just good grades. I know some may say all these frustrations and pressure are brought upon to me by myself, but well, that IS just me, setting all those stupid and unnecessary expectations for myself. And you know what, all these happened only because I started doing well 2 semesters ago. All these added pressure for nothing. Sigh.
This new year was well, here and there in some ways. It started off with the new year eve, whereby I joined the guys in clubroom for dota. Yes, I actually don't know how to play dota, but seeing them having so much fun, I couldn't resist the temptation and joined in the fun, making a noobish learning start of course. It was kinda funny though how some of them were already late for their reunion dinners, but they still wanted to finish off the last game. You know, the scene at the clubroom that day reminded me of my poly days, where school was a hell load of fun. You could play yahoo games during lab lessons, could go for billiards and lan in between and after classes, and you could even go to play lan in between exam papers! That was what poly was all about. Some people have this perception that you have to do very well from poly to get into university, but it wasn't the case for me. I kinda played and enjoyed most of my time at poly, with some hardwork and studying in between, but not much really. Although in saying this, I'm not saying its real easy to enter university from poly, just that it may not be as tough and you may not have to be as muggerfied as some people think. Whatever it is, my poly days will always be the best time of my studying years.
As for visiting on the first two days, an unexpected death of a not so close elder relative made my already short visiting rounds even shorter, and this again erased off some lines in my family tree. I visited only 3 places on the first day, and it took about 2-3 hours only, and just 1 place on the second day. It was kinda sad, and I really see myself and my family spending just 1-2 hours visiting in the years to come. It's a sad reality, as chinese new year seems to lose its meaning as you start growing older. It used to be the case where 1 day was not even enough for visiting, where visiting was fun and red packets aplenty, but now that has all changed.
The third day was better. Spent the morning at my gf's place before going to our friend's house, and then going to camy's house. It was a day of catching up with old friends, fun with university friends, and also lots of gambling. My blackjack luck was good at our friend's house, but kinda lost back some earnings at camy's house. Haha, played mahjong with her mum and aunt, and the stakes were double those I usually play. But well, it was good, and I did ok, until hock came and swipped my winnings, so much so that they become losings, haha. After camy's house, went out again with my gf and our friends and we played some simple games at this 24 hour hong kong cafe, and it was amazing how we could have so much fun and laughter just playing those simple round-the-table games.
Well just like that, I am already in the final day of the long chinese new year holiday, and its really upsetting to know that school resumes again tomorrow. I have totally slacked off for the past 3-4 days, and its gonna take time to start back the engine.
Many thoughts have been running through my head the past week, and its kinda disturbing. Since the end of last semester, I have always been complaining about school. I said before that I was seriously considering not going for honours, just simply for the fact that I was starting to get real tired of studying. That fact has not changed, and the reality of it surfaced in my thoughts again last week. To be real honest, I am feeling really saturated from all the studying. During visiting, one of my younger uncles was asking how long more before I graduate, and I said about 1 year plus because I am going for honours. His reply was, "good, studying is fun so study while you can". The reply was so similar to that of the IAC panel I mentioned before. But it dawned upon me that, studying is not at all fun for me now. The only fun I had studying was during poly. The activities and friends at university is fun, but studying? I know when I go out to work in the future, I may look back to say I prefer to study than work, but thats for the future. As for now, studying is well, to say the least, not something I am enjoying at all.
Apart from the saturation from all the work and assignments, there is another reason why I am so sick of studying. I must admit many a times I am too overly concerned about my grades, about my CAP score, about dean's list, about assignment weightages. But sometimes I just sit down to ask myself, why worry so much? These stuff are getting to me, and making me all stressed up and worried. In fact, too stressed up and worried for my own good. It is really frustrating. Suddenly, I just want to graduate, and go out to work.
I am so looking forward to internship and SEP now, rather than the workload and assignments ahead in this semester. I am now just focusing of doing fairly well for this semester, hoping to cement my cap at second upper region. I am now just looking forward to the experiences I can get from my internship and overseas exchange, which I am sure would do me more good than just good grades. I know some may say all these frustrations and pressure are brought upon to me by myself, but well, that IS just me, setting all those stupid and unnecessary expectations for myself. And you know what, all these happened only because I started doing well 2 semesters ago. All these added pressure for nothing. Sigh.
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