Greed by Human Nature
Spent the entire weekend at my gf's 21st bdae chalet. I didn't really get to sleep much, so am feeling kinda sleepy and tired now. Well, am real glad she enjoyed herself, and glad that so many people turned up. The 21st bdae is always a significant one, and I keep telling my gf how lucky she is to be able to have a big party. I spent my 21st climbing moutains and navigating through jungles in taiwan. How nice.
On to something else, I wanted to blog about this before going to the chalet, but lessons ended so late on friday and as I had to rush to get some stuff ready for the chalet, I didn't really have the time. So I shall do it now.
A topic surfaced on friday, yup the dean's list. About a month or so ago, I saw this day coming, and so it came. I decided against S/Uing one of my modules, as it was a fairly decent grade. But with that decision, my grades were dangerously on the border line to get into the dean's list's. And as expected, I merely missed it by that very bit. Yes, kinda feeling a little bit of the pinch, and a little disappointed. But the thing is, isn't it just amazing how greedy one can get. Right from the start, I was praying to just have decent enough grades which fall nicely in between sem 1 and 2, but I got something much better than that. And just because it fell a little short of the dean's list, I am complaining that I should have scored better. Someone should really just smack the fact into me that I should be grateful for grades which I was so lucky to have gotten.
Well, just because I made it into the dean's list once, and just because I did fairly well again last semester, somehow allowed some to forget, or just not realise how I actually fared for semester 1. I am actually happy and honoured by how a few of my friends can 'place' me up there, together with some of those super scorers. But sad to say, I honestly do not see myself there at all. As I mentioned before, last semester's grades were extremely lucky. Every single one of my modules got me grades higher than I could expect or calculate, and of those modules, there were only 2 grades which I felt I so dearly deserved. The other 3 were just plain lucky, and yes real lucky.
My initial goal in university was to just get a degree, something which was so dear considering the fact that I miraculously made it in from poly. And when things started turning for the better, I started aiming for higher. But as high as I can go, I have still capped myself at second upper. So the question really is, would anyone with my expections, have S/Ued a B+, a grade which nicely satisfies my second upper requirements?
Inclusive of IT1001 this semester, I have 4 more modules which can be taken out of faculty, and with 2 more S/Us, I feel safer. Some may see it as an unnecessary move to play it too safe, and that I should perhaps have just taken the chance to use that S/U, and leave myself with 1 S/U for the remaining 4 modules. But I guess I'm just someone who wants to play it safe. That's just the way I try to overcome the 'system'. Too safe? Maybe, if my grades continue rising. Maybe not, if my grades start dropping.
Yes, I seriously should be more confident and assured of my decision, but its true that words and opinion around you always affects your way of thinking. I guess I'm blogging all these because I am just trying to rant what I feel, and maybe also to assure myself of my actions. Bleah, and I should be more content, and stop being greedy.
On to something else, I wanted to blog about this before going to the chalet, but lessons ended so late on friday and as I had to rush to get some stuff ready for the chalet, I didn't really have the time. So I shall do it now.
A topic surfaced on friday, yup the dean's list. About a month or so ago, I saw this day coming, and so it came. I decided against S/Uing one of my modules, as it was a fairly decent grade. But with that decision, my grades were dangerously on the border line to get into the dean's list's. And as expected, I merely missed it by that very bit. Yes, kinda feeling a little bit of the pinch, and a little disappointed. But the thing is, isn't it just amazing how greedy one can get. Right from the start, I was praying to just have decent enough grades which fall nicely in between sem 1 and 2, but I got something much better than that. And just because it fell a little short of the dean's list, I am complaining that I should have scored better. Someone should really just smack the fact into me that I should be grateful for grades which I was so lucky to have gotten.
Well, just because I made it into the dean's list once, and just because I did fairly well again last semester, somehow allowed some to forget, or just not realise how I actually fared for semester 1. I am actually happy and honoured by how a few of my friends can 'place' me up there, together with some of those super scorers. But sad to say, I honestly do not see myself there at all. As I mentioned before, last semester's grades were extremely lucky. Every single one of my modules got me grades higher than I could expect or calculate, and of those modules, there were only 2 grades which I felt I so dearly deserved. The other 3 were just plain lucky, and yes real lucky.
My initial goal in university was to just get a degree, something which was so dear considering the fact that I miraculously made it in from poly. And when things started turning for the better, I started aiming for higher. But as high as I can go, I have still capped myself at second upper. So the question really is, would anyone with my expections, have S/Ued a B+, a grade which nicely satisfies my second upper requirements?
Inclusive of IT1001 this semester, I have 4 more modules which can be taken out of faculty, and with 2 more S/Us, I feel safer. Some may see it as an unnecessary move to play it too safe, and that I should perhaps have just taken the chance to use that S/U, and leave myself with 1 S/U for the remaining 4 modules. But I guess I'm just someone who wants to play it safe. That's just the way I try to overcome the 'system'. Too safe? Maybe, if my grades continue rising. Maybe not, if my grades start dropping.
Yes, I seriously should be more confident and assured of my decision, but its true that words and opinion around you always affects your way of thinking. I guess I'm blogging all these because I am just trying to rant what I feel, and maybe also to assure myself of my actions. Bleah, and I should be more content, and stop being greedy.
1 条评论:
well jeremy, of course one should always be grateful and contented whenever we get things above our expectations, that I totally agree with you =)
However, I feel, lucky or not, well, since you got it before, you have shown that you have the potential to do it all the time, as long as the conditions fall nicely again.
Of course, that's hard, but why not aim higher? I believe a little greed is good, as it will motivate you to aim higher and also achieve higher.
Of cos, I'm not saying to be disappointed when you can't get it, but aiming high always gives you the edge compared to not =)
Despite my second time in the list, I barely scrapped it. So, what is to say I have a right to remain in it? But well, it's always good to just try.
Nobody has a divine 'right' to be in the Dean's List, not even the 'super scorers' you mentioned.
So, just go for it every sem man! We might not be the smartest around, but with Arte Et Labore we can dream high =)
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