Getting A Little Messy
Well, I managed to jump from rag, to o-week, and then to rag again, and back to o-week, running from site to site. Promised to in one way or another help both projects, so no way I am going to go back on my promise. Not sure if because of this I am neglecting my fullest effort on any of these 2 projects individually, but I feel that currently its the best and only way I can think of helping both projects at one time. Tiring it is, but seriously, I'm not complaining. I really enjoy being a part of both projects, the time spent, the activities, and most importantly, the people.
On to something less pleasant ...
If you guys frequent my blog, you should know that I am someone who tends to be a little indirect when blogging. I intentionally phrase my words indirectly to describe how I feel of certain things, knowing that some people will understand, while others may not. I try my best not to be direct on anything, as I know the repercussions of being an irresponsible blogger, and how blogging can cause unhappiness and misjudgements. However, for whats to follow, I will be truly direct and honest.
I am rather disturbed at some things I have seen and heard recently. Its been a rough and messy week, and it has at times even become nasty. Emotions are running wild, everyone is really lacking sleep, and some people are at a big risk of losing control of themselves. People are really starting to show their ugly sides, and I can really sense a whole lot of tension between people. In fact, I can tell that people are even starting to dislike each other. And if you really look at it, all these boils down to the projects we are working on. If you ask me, I think all the friendships affected and negative impressions going around is not at all worth it. And to be even more honest, another reason for why re-running should not even be an option to consider.
And yes, although I personally feel that I can still manage to keep myself in check, I must say I am starting to lose abit of my temper too. I am starting to get impatient with people who persuades me to re-run for the wrong reasons. I dislike it when people assume that my personal problems and concerns should rank second to re-running, I dislike it when people think that they understand my concerns and think that I am worrying too much, and I hate it when because of whatever decision I make, I start to be branded as selfish. In fact, all this persuasion and expectation is really pissing me off, and slanting me even closer to my decision of not re-running. Please, give me some space, and some of my own personal rights to make a choice which would really affect me.
On to something less pleasant ...
If you guys frequent my blog, you should know that I am someone who tends to be a little indirect when blogging. I intentionally phrase my words indirectly to describe how I feel of certain things, knowing that some people will understand, while others may not. I try my best not to be direct on anything, as I know the repercussions of being an irresponsible blogger, and how blogging can cause unhappiness and misjudgements. However, for whats to follow, I will be truly direct and honest.
I am rather disturbed at some things I have seen and heard recently. Its been a rough and messy week, and it has at times even become nasty. Emotions are running wild, everyone is really lacking sleep, and some people are at a big risk of losing control of themselves. People are really starting to show their ugly sides, and I can really sense a whole lot of tension between people. In fact, I can tell that people are even starting to dislike each other. And if you really look at it, all these boils down to the projects we are working on. If you ask me, I think all the friendships affected and negative impressions going around is not at all worth it. And to be even more honest, another reason for why re-running should not even be an option to consider.
And yes, although I personally feel that I can still manage to keep myself in check, I must say I am starting to lose abit of my temper too. I am starting to get impatient with people who persuades me to re-run for the wrong reasons. I dislike it when people assume that my personal problems and concerns should rank second to re-running, I dislike it when people think that they understand my concerns and think that I am worrying too much, and I hate it when because of whatever decision I make, I start to be branded as selfish. In fact, all this persuasion and expectation is really pissing me off, and slanting me even closer to my decision of not re-running. Please, give me some space, and some of my own personal rights to make a choice which would really affect me.
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