Resigned to Fate

What to say, but I am disappointed. Not at myself though, more at reality, again. Yup results were just released, and it did not turn out as I expected. Was it because I had expected too much, is it the bell curve, is University level just that high, or did something go wrong without me realising. I mentioned in a post much earlier back that academic results and luck never seemed to be on my side, and deja vu, the same has happened again. Just when I thought for once I could finally do well, the reality of the results brought all my hopes down again.

Many will say its just the first semester, and yes it's true. But it is also true that whether it is the first sem or the last sem, I will still be upset about not achieving what I had expected to. Well maybe like I said, I was expecting too much. Again feeling a little hard done by, as I had put in real effort to study hard this time, but to no avail. It kinds of demoralises me to actually put in the same effort the next time.

It makes me wonder now whether my style of writing actually caused such grades. Irony is that the module I worried for the most got me the highest grade, and the 2 modules which I feel that I have done well got me the worst results. Yup thats what makes me more furious, again as mentioned in a previous post, the thing I really dislike about Arts, is that sometimes you just don't know where and when you have gone wrong, or even right.

Well but I'm not all that down. At least now I really know the standards. And of course, I'll move on, keeping a thought at the back of my head, that I am still happy and grateful that I made it into NUS, something which was almost taken away from me.