I Am My Own Worst Enemy
It has been 5 days since my last entry, and believe it or not, the reason is because I have been busy with school work. Haha, and it doesn't stop. I still have two sociology assignments to rush tonight.
I guess it's not really because school here is very hectic or whatsoever, but perhaps more like because I've been slacking so much at the start, that it has all started to pile up now. Well, I wasn't really expected to keep up with my readings every other week while on exchange right? I don't even do that back at home.
So life recently has been practically filming, editing, studying, and assignments. Managed to squeeze a mini soccer session somewhere in between, but that session was probably the only 'break' I had away from academics over the weekend. It didn't help that some minor but persistent flu bug hit me since last thursday.
I just completed a mid term, and despite the test covering just 5 chapters, there was a crazy amount of readings to do. I actually spent a few days on the hundreds of pages needed to be covered, but in the end, I just couldn't cover everything. So I went into the test with an 'exchange student' mindset, by just trying my best with whatever I had absorbed.
The conflict here would of course be why am I actually spending so many hours on my readings, somewhat unlike what an exchange student should or would do. Well, I didn't come here to do well, but neither did I come here to do badly. After all, SEP at CUHK was part of my escapism from CAP. So I am actually finding it hard to draw the line on where exactly is 'enough'. I guess it's also probably just me to want to just give it my best ... so I guess it isn't all that slack as I had wanted it to be.
As the entry title says, my own worst enemy? Myself.
I guess it's not really because school here is very hectic or whatsoever, but perhaps more like because I've been slacking so much at the start, that it has all started to pile up now. Well, I wasn't really expected to keep up with my readings every other week while on exchange right? I don't even do that back at home.
So life recently has been practically filming, editing, studying, and assignments. Managed to squeeze a mini soccer session somewhere in between, but that session was probably the only 'break' I had away from academics over the weekend. It didn't help that some minor but persistent flu bug hit me since last thursday.
I just completed a mid term, and despite the test covering just 5 chapters, there was a crazy amount of readings to do. I actually spent a few days on the hundreds of pages needed to be covered, but in the end, I just couldn't cover everything. So I went into the test with an 'exchange student' mindset, by just trying my best with whatever I had absorbed.
The conflict here would of course be why am I actually spending so many hours on my readings, somewhat unlike what an exchange student should or would do. Well, I didn't come here to do well, but neither did I come here to do badly. After all, SEP at CUHK was part of my escapism from CAP. So I am actually finding it hard to draw the line on where exactly is 'enough'. I guess it's also probably just me to want to just give it my best ... so I guess it isn't all that slack as I had wanted it to be.
As the entry title says, my own worst enemy? Myself.
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